January 8, 2026
Awoken by tachycardia caused by intense heat on chest around 4:30am
Exposed to high heat caused by microwaves until around 9:00am to 10:00am
There was a second two hour or so period of exposure to high heat later in the day, though I no longer remember the times as of the writing these notes at 6:42pm.
During this time heat was constantly applied at higher than usual levels to my torso, back, and head. During the second period I was noticeably sweating.
My appetite is minimal. I managed to eat some Vietnamese Pho which works well for me due to the high liquid and sodium content. Ice cream has been helpful to feel a little cooler.
I feel calmer than yesterday, but am no less angry about what is happening to me; I continue to express my lack of consent to what has and is happening; I am also very clear in expressing my contempt for those doing this; I am also clear that what is being done hurts emotionally and physically; I strongly believe that the use of sexual harassment is repugnant
Clitoral stimulation has been stronger than usual and has been non-stop throughout the day; I am urinating more frenquently and feel as though I have a UTI even though I clearly do not.
Stimulation was also applied to my right breast and nipple.
Currently, heat has been applied to the kidney area of my low back at moderate but still uncomfortable levels.
12:49pm - Received a nice email from the Trust officer making the situation clear
6:00pm - Replied to a lawyer making it clear that I was not especially interested in suing the school or the teacher, but that I am frightened and want to better understand my rights and options so I can leave the area.
6:37pm - Sent an email to the festival involved with the Blue Light video
7:21pm - email sent to UC faculty member included in the Gripper exchange
I would like to keep an apartment here in Oakland while I take some trips and do a bit of traveling
10:26pm - given headache after sending email to watercolor teacher with Laleh’s name in it
11:48pm - published documentation to website when clitoral stimulation got more intense when wanted to sleep; before doing this I repeatedly made it clear that I wanted the sexual harassment to stop and that it was late and I needed to sleep.
Clitoral stimulation increased further after publishing website
I will continue to search for a lawyer tomorrow and will continue to notify people about what is happening
12:00am I went for a long walk; it didn’t help much; I am continuing to throw out as much as possible; I’ve gone through the front closet, the bathroom and the hallway closet; I truly despise the people who are doing this to me; I despise everyone else involved; I have severed ties with everyone involved in this. Regardless of whether my mother has died, I will move eventually. The lot of you are cruel worthless pieces of shit. I spit on all of you.
I went on a long walk after this; it was a very difficult night