March 2, 2026

11:19am - I have been trying to set something up with a psychiatrist as suggested by a uniformed officer. Unfortunately, I have Medicare rather than Medi-Cal which limits my options. Also, the vast majority of psychiatrists in private practice have capped the number of Medicare patients they will accept. Unfortunately, this also eliminates the possibility of paying privately out-of-pocket because Medicare does not allow doctors have patients covered by Medicare to pay privately. Basically, I either need to get lucky, beg a lot, or go to the emergency room. I have a lot of concerns around losing additional civil rights and am hence reticent to use the emergency room.

8:53am - Intense stimulation of the genital area and top of the head accompanied by pressure inside the head and facial flushing with brain fog and sleepiness. The harassers have stated that they were up set by last night’s blog entry. I have repeatedly stated, that I would like to be left alone so I can get some work done. The harassers are clearly attempting to provoke an emotional outbursts.

7:14am - Despite some abatement here and there, harassment generally feels as though it is returning to the same pattern of behaviors and intensity as before February 28. I was told that the harassment would be less intense and that I would be given periods of time without harassment as I experienced on February 28. I am extremely tired and both the exhaustion and the stress are wearing on me physically and mentally. I having been doing my best to keep the situation calm and occupy myself around the home. I also exercised yesterday and will do so again today. If anyone is able to help support this it would be greatly appreciated.

6:44am - I was allowed somewhat better sleep last night. More to the point, the degree of harassment occurring after 2:00am was not so problematic as to prevent sleep. I awoke at 2:00am. I wasn’t particularly stressed when I awoke, but I was concerned I may not be able to get back to sleep easily. I started to repeat the Lord’s Prayer quietly to myself. For whatever reason the harassers tend to react negatively to this although during the two hour long stimulated rape last week, they allowed me to pray without further punishment. Regardless, the people on duty last not were not of the same frame of mind and began to punish me by inducing high levels of stress. They also created the sensation of something being inserted into my vagina.

More recently they have affecting my speech and inducing a lisp. They seem to find it particularly amusing to do this when I pray. Speech issues are a problem I sometimes experience as a medication side effect and it concerns me that they so readily reproduce it. Given I have neurological issues, monkeying around and using too much force and stimulation makes little sense and strikes me as a poorly considered liability.

The harassing officers have also taken to producing left sided symptoms I sometimes experience when my illnesses are poorly controlled. This includes a sensation around my left eye, the base of my skull on the left side, my left hip and pelvic area, and sometimes my left leg. I have a much stronger sensation in my left forearm and hand and a surprisingly strong tremor in my left ring finger.

Otherwise, I continue to feel exhausted and as though the harassing officers are tearing me up from the inside out. They are able to parody emotions by provoking physical symptoms. While the emotions do not feel as though they are mine, they feel quite bad nonetheless. It is also physically and mentally exhausting to have physical responses like those caused by stress induced for such a long time.

It feels as though the officers are literally attempting to wring feelings out of me regardless of whether or not they are actually present. I assume this is a botched attempt at some form of therapy. If so, I would like to repeat that at no point have any of the officers said they are licensed medical practitioners. As such I do not consent to what they are doing.

Why not call a lawyer?

I have tried calling and emailing lawyers, but I have received no responses to email or tracked postal mail. I have been able to get callbacks, but once the conversations turn to email, the lawyers disappear. I had one appointment that was inexplicably cancelled. I have also tried disability groups with little luck.

The OPD is now suggesting I talk to a psychiatrist. It is their feeling that a psychiatrist would be able to inform me about what is going on and would be able to provide some assistance in stopping the harassment I am receiving.

Otherwise, I brought it to the attention of the OPD that there is a second trust on my father’s side. This is a much smaller trust, but I have had little luck contacting the bank to get any information. I have never seen the trust agreement, but it would have been nice to know whether it might have been of some help at the time I was forced to sell my car.