January 22, 2026
Stimulation of the anogenital area throughout the day; sometimes pain, sometimes not; the pain usually, but not always at decreased levels than the past few days.
There has been a significant increase in head and neck pain; while it alternated between anogenital and head pain this morning; over the course of the afternoon the head and neck pain was continuous; there have been issues with vertigo, lightheadness, and greater difficulty going up the stairs; I had hoped to take my laundry to the laundromat, but I was concerned the exertion would result in a fall or near-syncope.
I told the harassers this morning that consistently targeting my head with headaches, neck pain, etc. would almost certainly result in increased neurological symptoms; I warned them that this could result in a worsening of things like lightheadedness, etc.; the pain continued and increased later in the day.
I went to visit my friend around midday; I went without a phone, etc. as I did not want to be tracked or have my conversations listened to; the harassers had no difficulty following my movements; head pain increased significantly after this time; when I was returning home, there was a large African-American man on the platform with his pant half-down so his butt was showing; he was staring at me on the platform; given there was only one other person on the platform as well as the harassers tendency to use people in this fashion, I assumed this was their work; I started walking towards home with the intention of keeping an eye out for the 1T and catching it at the next platform; I walked for quite sometime without any sign of the 1T until I saw “No arrival times” on one of the platforms; this was also done to me in North Hollywood - i.e. buses and metro would be held so I could not use public transport; I continued the walk home which ended up being a little under 3 miles; my hands were cold upon arriving home which is not typically an issue for me when exerting myself; I also had difficulty on the stairs.
I also went to the grocery store; I purchased milk, greens, and ice cream for dinner; while I was checking out the harassers applied heat to my stomach as if to remind me I needed to eat; this has been an issue for a couple of days now and strikes me as highly ironic in light of the stress and civil rights violations.
I have continued to be clear that I will not cooperate with the harassers; I do not feel safe; I have been clear that under no circumstances do I consent to what they are doing; I have been clear that I feel as though they are doing more harm and constitute a bigger threat than any threat posed by a possible name leak; I have also been clear I would prefer to take my chances without them; I do not like these people and do not feel safe with them; I do not like the way they treat me; I strongly believe the harassment including the use of pain, sexual stimulation, and aggravation of neurological and cardiovascular symptoms to be a violation of my civil rights.
I am continuing to work on selling and disposing of my things so I can lighten the load; I continue to feel like this is no longer somewhere I want to live but I have no other plans at this time and any move would take a great deal of time to set up given medical issues.
After writing this, pain has been applied to my clitoris and intensified.